I have come to a very interesting time in my life. I am beginning to figure out who I am and who I want to be. At this point in time the most important things to me are my God, my family, my school, my responsibilities as a young adult, and when the time comes... somebody who I could love and be in love with. I don't know who, how, or when. It's not a priority. However if it feels right, it will happen. I am in another completely different state of mind right know, I don't even recognize myself. I guess you can say I'm all caught up in coping with a broken heart on my part and on the part of the person who's heart I broke. However, I've never felt so free to do anything I want. There has been days when i just feel like walking. I don't care where or how far. I just want to walk away from everyone and everything. I know it may sound selfish but it's frankly how I feel. On the other hand the situation with my family is a roller-coaster. Like every other family we have are good moment and our bad moments. What it comes down to though is that I love my family more than anything and anyone here on earth. I know that whatever and whenever I need them, they will be there. First and foremost my mother. She is my hero. I love her with all her mistakes, she has done way over her part in being a wonderful mother. With her two jobs and with her business woman instinct she has given us everything. I thank God so much for giving everything he gives me. Everyday the day he gives me is a precious gift to me. Having a roof over my head is a precious gift to me. Having a bed to sleep on everyday is a precious gift. Having my mother and father and them taking care of me even though they don't have to is a precious gift. Having everyone who I have in my life with me is a precious gift. One thing I am most grateful for is that I have my best friend with me everyday in heart. He still takes care of me like when he did when he was alive. I feel him with me at all time. I miss him so much though. I am very content with life right now. I feel very blessed.
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