i do not know

what will happen.
i do not know if it will happen.
i do not know exactly how you feel.
i do know i love the way i feel.
i do know i love the unpredictability of the future.
i just hope that future consist of you.

:)

you make me

feel happy. my tummy turns when you talk to me. you make my heart beat so fast. your voice makes me feel safe. your hugs make me feel secure. you're eyes make me melt inside. your thoughts make me think. you always keep me wondering. i may get hurt at some point but i'm willing to take the chance because the feelings you make me feel are so well worth it.

i love watching

Leila sleep.

necessary thoughts

I have come to a very interesting time in my life. I am beginning to figure out who I am and who I want to be. At this point in time the most important things to me are my God, my family, my school, my responsibilities as a young adult, and when the time comes... somebody who I could love and be in love with. I don't know who, how, or when. It's not a priority. However if it feels right, it will happen. I am in another completely different state of mind right know, I don't even recognize myself. I guess you can say I'm all caught up in coping with a broken heart on my part and on the part of the person who's heart I broke. However, I've never felt so free to do anything I want. There has been days when i just feel like walking. I don't care where or how far. I just want to walk away from everyone and everything. I know it may sound selfish but it's frankly how I feel. On the other hand the situation with my family is a roller-coaster. Like every other family we have are good moment and our bad moments. What it comes down to though is that I love my family more than anything and anyone here on earth. I know that whatever and whenever I need them, they will be there. First and foremost my mother. She is my hero. I love her with all her mistakes, she has done way over her part in being a wonderful mother. With her two jobs and with her business woman instinct she has given us everything. I thank God so much for giving everything he gives me. Everyday the day he gives me is a precious gift to me. Having a roof over my head is a precious gift to me. Having a bed to sleep on everyday is a precious gift. Having my mother and father and them taking care of me even though they don't have to is a precious gift. Having everyone who I have in my life with me is a precious gift. One thing I am most grateful for is that I have my best friend with me everyday in heart. He still takes care of me like when he did when he was alive. I feel him with me at all time. I miss him so much though. I am very content with life right now. I feel very blessed.